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Christ! - Vox Audita Perrit, Literra Scripta Manet....
The heard word is lost, the written letter remains...
normandie_m
normandie_m
Christ!
Fuckfuckfuck.....

My results are being released today......shitshitshit.

I know I did crap. It's palpable....my school Dean wrote us (the senior class) a letter saying we did above average but performed below expectations.

In other words, I probably did shit. I don't want to look at my results...well, I do, but I don't. It's hard to explain....part of me wants to rip them up when I get them, the other half wants to give them a cursory inspection and dump them.

:( I need to get my mind off this....it's virtually impossible though. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it all week....even Andrew's reassurances aren't enough.

Ah yes, Andrew.....

....yesterday, he announced that he wasn't going to the seminary. Final decision, in his words.

We're not going to get back together though. I've decided not to, as I think we're probably better off as friends in case he might change his mind again. He's ok with that, and I'm ok. The whole thing is over. Woo-hoo, I guess...

Right, now that's out of my system....I can't think of much more to say. Back to panicking, then....

Current Mood: Scareddepressedmiserable
Current Music: Kylie friggin' Minogue- Confide in Me

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From: (Anonymous) Date: December 12th, 2002 11:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
deep, healing breaths. you will do just fine.
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