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This isn't going to be a good week. - Vox Audita Perrit, Literra Scripta Manet.... — LiveJournal
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This isn't going to be a good week.
It's been nearly a year since Maryke died. Next Monday is the first anniversary. I'm not feeling particularly sad at the moment, it's more a sense of not being able to think about or do anything else, knowing that the anniversary is coming up.

I wonder if this isn't part of the reason why I'm finding it a bit difficult to work on the thesis at the moment. I'm having a hard time concentrating. Hopefully when I go to uni on Thursday, I can really hunker down and get the main arguments of the chapter established.

My older sister Suzanne flies in from Dubai on Friday for a short holiday. I think she probably wants to observe the anniversary, though my parents are making a point on treating it as a normal day, and are both going to work.

I'm not sure what I will do yet. I'm torn between wanting to push Maryke to the back of my mind and go to uni or using the day to remember her, go to church and so forth. I'll continue to think about this through the week, but I hope that this week won't be a total loss when it comes to all that non-Maryke stuff.

Current Mood: discontent discontent
Current Music: The Panics- Live Without

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praeteritio From: praeteritio Date: May 5th, 2008 01:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
That time of the year last year is very vivid in my memory too. I think it's healthy to allow yourself to remember I hope you don't push yourself too much. Maybe it's about finding balance so that you take time to remember but also expect less of yourself, but get some work done as well. If so, I hope you find that, and that you have a meaningful time with your sister and parents as well. *hugs*
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